Life is so sad.
I drink a ton ofcoffee in the morning and try to draw, but life is so dull there is nothing interesting to create! Anything I create is plain empty to me.
Told myself to be numb, but thats bs, my life is sad. It’s sad like a can rusting on the ground, its not like anything truly dramatic has happened to me (apart from dead mum at 10? Idc, I shouldnt consider that as a loss, considering how boriiiiing my family is). I wish I could be like you guys and have lost something instead of not having anything to lose in the first place! I dont have friends, someone I love, shit like that. Dulllll life. Stupid and sad. If only I were smart! But no my stupidity prevents me from thinking any further.
So why not kill myself? Well there’s indeed 0 reason to be alive, but I’m scared of cutting my wrist, or jumping under a train, and firearms arent legal in France. Survival instinct. But I truly wish to die.