why do shitty things happen to me? i have an abusive father, i have a mom who’s always sick, i have a brother who feels the same as me and i have an uncle who’s a complete drunkard. my parents would always fight every now and then which is so fucking tiring. i would always witness their fights for years and it has become so toxic to the point that it makes me bear the situation. i’m so helplessly tired, my friends at school can’t even take me seriously. my internet friends are fucking far away. i don’t have anyone to rely on because my dad would always use me as an emotional punching bag of his frustrations and regrets after he finishes with my mom. seriously, why would you fucking raise a child when all you can do is to press all your disappointments and failed dreams to us? why can’t you see that i am also as tired as yall. you can’t even respect me as your child. i fucking hate this life, i hate this household, i hate myself. this is just so pathetic. i’m a fucking loser. i hate everything. i’m tired, i want to just die instead.