I’m very new to actually talking to someone/ people how I have felt. Loneliness. It hits harder than ever these days. All I want is a simple ‘are you okay?’ from anyone. I feel fine some days but when I’m not speaking to anyone it all comes back to me how I have lost all my friends and the ones I have left don’t even bother to check up on me. I recently lost a bestfriend I have had for 10 years and damn that hit hard. I constantly think about whether I should repair things with her but what she did was unforgivable in my eyes. When I’m around people I feel very awkward and I’m just a boring person to be around that’s why everyone is leaving my life. I have friends but they have better friends. I cry constantly and I’m just lost on what to do it really hurts 🙁 sometimes I wanna end it all because I feel empty and no one will care as there’s no one to check up on me anyway.
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i can be your friend. i had my friend do the same thing to me. we were friends for years and then she went behind my back with my bf and told everyone to not tell me. plus i like talking to people and making new friends. i wouldnt mind checking on you now and again everyone needs someone they can count on and ive had a lot of people tell me they feel comfortable talking to me. i think its because i dont judge people. they are the way they are for a reason and its not their fault. i mean even the mean people are mean for a reason and it probably has to do with their upbringing. anyway if you ever want someone to listen, not judge and send millions of virtual hugs your way im here 🙂
hey should I message the email linked to your account? Thank you so much 🙂
You should find something peaceful to do like reading a book no matter how uninteresting it may look. Depression is hard to fight but we introverts have the ability to enjoy ourselves even alone. If you enjoy your own company, you will be able to make friends in the future. And remember, you are not alone. Many people feel the same and lost their friends or have been abandoned. Friendships are hard to make these days…
There are days when I am so lonely it is boggling. I wake up and think, this is what life is, rinse repeat? Trust comes slowly in my life. Sometimes never. And I’m so fucking lonely all the time. Even surrounded by all these damn humans who seem to be cruising through life on auto pilot.