Good evening,
I’m kinda obsessed by suicide now, I just think of it all the time. Anyway even though I really wish to kill myself, just the fact that I have a survival instinct makes me too damned scared to jump out the windows or go on the railway, even if I see the train coming and that the next one is in 2 hours. I wish this crappy country could legalize guns. I would get one and shoot myself instantly, I mean, its just a little move of your finger and then its done. It sounds waayyyyy less scary than seeing the train come and jump under. I had the courage (or cowardness I dont know) to try and jump undrr it when I saw it coming, and I missed it by a few seconds. F $ck!
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Partly it’s the survival instinct and partly it is your logic that realizes these methods are risky, unreliable and could leave you in a far worse position than you’re in now.
If you ever decide to go through with it then do a lot of research, there are methods that are safer, easier and more reliable. I’ve decided on one myself, in ert g as but the hard part is getting it….but it’s not too difficult if one was determined.
I’ve done a lot of research ngl, but I can hardly get anything to kms. I still live with my dad and he knows what I buy. I’m stuck
Well if you had to buy something, you could rent a mail locker at your post office and leave stuff there.
Anyways, I’m not trying to give you any ideas. If one is determined one can always find a way. I could never leave my elderly mother alone since none of my family members will help her out, so that’s the main reason I keep going.
Also that my life isn’t as bad as it used to be, it’s slowly getting better….and I hope to do a few things before I end it, so that’s another reason I’m hanging on. I just wish I had been smarter when I was younger.
Hopefully if my plan works out, I’ll have a good life for a few years and then die happy.
I do honestly fear death, but with Euthanasia become more available, I feel that would be the best way to go since you’re medically supervised and you’ll be out like a light under anesthesia.
Well I am determined enough to attempt and fail. But I’m not medically supervised tho, what makes you think I am? Also euthanasia is not legal in my country. Real bs.