I am not suicidal anymore, I think. Yes sometimes I think of dying, I wonder what would have happened if I just died or if any of my previous attempts worked. But I don’t want to die anymore. I’ve found a reason to live. I’m slowly trying to take care of myself, to love myself, to pay better attention to myself. I want to tell myself that I did well. That I really did a good job. I did outrun my mind. Not completely, the idea of just dying is not yet gone from my memory or thoughts whatever. But I am still proud of what I accomplished.
Thank you for those who commented on my previous posts I appreciate it a lot. Now that I came back here I don’t see familiar faces :(( or names lol. But anyway yeah it’s kinda sad idk if some of them decided to ctb or just deleted their acc. Guess I have to look for them. Idk.
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Hey its good to hear your doing better. I too haven’t been on here in a minute and also don’t wanna die anymore but the idea is still in my mind, just continually haunting me.
I d think I remember you from before but nice to meet you now!!! And both in a better place