So… Anyone else here think that so called i n c e l s aren’t wrong?
I’m handsome. I don’t need to worry about shit like that. But the sheerly arbitrary nature of life/existence has always stuck with me. You know how it all goes. People ignore people who are too mentally ill or ugly for society. And for what? To chase the goal of pointless procreation.
Technically speaking, to someone in such harsh circumstances, every normal life lived could be viewed as an affront, their lives stand as a testament to refuse to acknowledge the arbitrary nature of reality…
I’m detached from reality. Whenever I get high (marijuana) I feel normal again. The real me only comes out when I’m high. I’m not speaking remotely figuratively here. I’m literally detached from reality. As in, oblivious, to a degree, to what I am doing and experiencing. When I get high I suddenly become aware of how I’m feeling. I guess I shut off long ago to protect myself.
I don’t like getting high. Whenever I get high, everything seems so harsh and metallic and disparate. It reminds me of that girl who killed someone while on antidepressants and said it was because people aren’t real, they’re robots. I’ve been where she’s been because I’ve taken them. It’s scary as fuck. But maybe it’s real. But would you really want to see that? To strive for that as the truth, out of virtue? Fairly certain Eastern philosophy posits there is no absolute truth. Some people believe there are only points of view. Maybe the problem with the West is that we think there’s absolute, objective truth. But the whole “points of reference” thing just doesn’t feel right to me. But what is it that is driving us toward such truths anyway? Man, I’m stupid.