Desending further and further …

I’ve always felt alone all my life where no one actually loves or cares enough to get me out of my miserable existence. Working a hopeless job with so much pressure and stress driving me towards benzos to cope with daily life, and now I can fairly say I’m addicted and good a old benzo baby now leading me further towards thoughts of suicide. My parents and brothers don’t understand, but they’re all fucked in their own right …. There hasn’t been a happy moment to hold on too since years, and all I do I fuck up and hurt the people around me. This fog is slowly eating my existence and I finally want a way out ..