Fear

I’m scared, I’m scared of a lot of things but non less then love. I’m so scared to fall in love that it gives me anxiety. I shake and tremble. The last time I fell in love was with this amazing guy. I let my guard down and he took advantage of it. Took my heart told me that he would love me forever and that we wouldn’t hurt me. Stupid for me to believe him. He still crosses my mind. I’m with this girl who I’m falling for. It’s to the point where I want to cry but I can’t because I’m so numb to everything. The world is crashing down on me and I don’t know what to do about it. She will ignore me for hours on end and thats the same thing he did. If I keep falling for her I don’t know what I will do. I can’t handle this pain if it happens again. I’m so sick of feeling like this. I want to be able to fall in love and not be scared of what will happen afterwords.