Im scared of the nothingness and uncertainty that comes with death. But how can i be scared of what i already am.
Whats any of it matter anyway. They all stripped away my chances of life. No happy family. No children. No drivers license. No independancy. Nothing. Its all gone.
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I relate to the first part of this. I feel for you on the second part, I don’t know how I would survive if I didn’t have some sort of independence. I guess in some part driving was a huge step for me, I’ve always lived in the west and without a license I wouldn’t have been able to get a job as I’ve almost always been 15 miles from work or anything.
I noticed you stopped counting days? How is that going?
If I’m honest, I see the appeal, I hate to see it control someone’s life like it can but being drunk, high, or both does help the anxieties and calms the thoughts down a bit.
I won’t admit I have a problem since I can go without it pretty easily at the moment but I’ve been having some liquor with my coffee and throughout the day to cope with the stress of working since I’m working from home now and I feel worlds better. I know I will have to stop when I have to go back to the office and I dread that but right now it’s what I needed. This quarantine has been a blessing even if I don’t believe in god.
Yeah….what he doesnt know wont hurt us
I thought so too but it will hurt more if he finds out on his own. Either way, as long as you’re happy with your choice that’s what matters.
He wont find out. This is the only place that knows and he doesnt come here unless I link him something.
Sadly my choice doesnt much matter. Because of my bpd it chances often ugh *eye roll* lol
If that’s not the truth with BPD. I know the feeling. :/
you do? ive had a few…problems lately and i was wondering if maybe we could talk away from here. im just curious if these problems im having are caused from bpd or if its something else
Sadly yes. I was diagnosed BPD 14 years ago. I didn’t really know what that meant at the time other than I believed it was close to multiple personality disorder or schizophrenia but I’ve learned a lot since then and was way off point. I guess even the professionals have learned a lot since then.
Would love to chat about it.
Awesome. Well not awesome that you’re in this situation but awesome that I’m not in this sinking boat alone lol. Anyway where could we talk. I only really have Facebook and email.
https://www.facebook.com/abnormal.thought.14
I made a FB account to talk on. Enjoy my evil cat. Lol.