This is an attempt to recover from whatever agony or ongoing mental illnesses are plaguing my mind and possibly my brain. I have suffered from depression ever since a teenager. I find bravery in telling my stories or my life experience. I probably could listen to hours of people life’s stories or perspectives on life since no sees through the same window pane. And more importantly, your values. What creates meaning to your life and what makes you feel as you have a purpose, or whatever is making you cling onto your life preventing suicide, which can easily can be our primal instincts of survival. As I’m getting older, I began to see we how we are all so similar in our unique ways. Have you ever thought posts on social media, is a reflection of your values, and every one’s true desires. How the Internet, knows more about you than you know about yourself. The worldwide web, will be a master key, to truly understanding humanity, and nothing but least, raveling the secrets and wonders of the world.
Just like this post, I can understand how technology has revolutionized this world into a more convenience and ideal world, even if it isn’t for the better. But the question will always remain, will it destroy us, were technology has surpassed our comprehension and understanding, and its to powerful for its own good, and which is anything absolute in power, absolutely corrupts (Ex Google selling all your private web browsing history- Purchase History) so crooked companies can con you into deals you can’t refuse, or whatever evil agenda would behind the sellout of our privacy.
Even Obama has made such an evil statement, we can’t have complete national security and complete privacy. Other words, the government can know everything there is to know about you, so they can evaluate if you’re menace to society, because the tribal rules, can protect society. I’m not saying wrong doers shouldn’t be punished, but the absolute control of the government haunts me. As they literally shutdown so many businesses and disrupt so many lives just with a simple government order through the governor and congress.
Which draws me back to original theory of life, we will always be the victim of our surroundings, and adapt to whatever ways society lives, through the complete control from the government and necessity of money to survive, which is easily corrupted.
We aren’t in in complete control of our lives as much as we wish. We are victims of our past experiences, future problems and whatever school of hard knocks, we must graduate. Which this paragraph finally ties into the first, mental illness is created and born, when we can’t adapt to society’s demands and hardships, creating us to be victims of society, especially money problems. I imagine how many people would quit being suicidal if they were rewarded money, as it can buy anything tangible in this world. Or how simple our illnesses can be resolved. Which mental illness, unfortunately usually a life sentence, if you can never escape it or beat it( Flight or Fight Response)
My point of this post, I challenge you to answer your owns questions about life, or whatever has brought you forth to browse The Suicide Project, just like my answers are all opinions, but I based them all on my life experiences. Plus, I just get a kick from truly understanding this world, which is so must important than knowing the answers. Here’s my wisdom, understanding the answer is so much more important than knowing the answer.
Sorry for the Very Long Post, I hope i opened your mind more, because feeling suicidal, you can maybe find the underlying disease and cure yourself from understanding why you were ever suicidal in the first place, and possibly bring yourself to a state of happiness, you do miss.