I sometimes look at discord to see if she’s on. Yeah I know it’s creepy. Yeah I know I should probably stop. Yeah I know that I’m a sad pathetic man. Anyways, I noticed she was playing League of Legends. That means she is ok. Or ok enough to play a video game. Yeah it kind of sucks that she won’t respond to my messages but she will play a game. It hurts a little. But after a little while, I realized that she is ok enough to play games and possibly hang out with friends. That means she is not sick or feeling too sad to do anything. She is ok. She’s not dead or too depressed to get out of bed. She is possibly playing with friends, so at least she is a bit happy. I’d rather her be happy and not talking to me than being not ok. And she hasn’t blocked me on discord or possibly on the phone (I think). So at least it’s open in the future for us to talk again. She hasn’t completely shut me out. Oh well. I’m just happy she’s playing a video game.