Just recieved another email rejecting my job application. Fuck me. They rejected my disability claim and told me to go back to the line of work i was fucking horrible at even then before psychosis and strong medications. I cant even face people i used to be closest with, not even my best friend. Seen her at the store and she called my name and i just stood there and dissociated in my deep prison of anxiety. Im fed up with my life, i want to take the $50 im getting soon and buy bottles of whisley and find something to hang myself with!