i spent my night at work thinking about it and…i dont feel any better. i cant believe he would do something like that to me. the worse part is he hates my other friends but at least they wouldnt pull a stunt like this and would stand behind me. i miss him and i want all of this to be ok but every time i go to his messages my chest hurts and i feel sick and betrayed.
i trusted him. he knew everything. i would spent nights crying and he would stay up and talk to me. this really fucking hurts and i want to cry until my heart melts and theres nothing left, leaving me numb.
im trying to talk to him but….idk i just cant.
and there comes the abandonment feeling. i talked to him. and just gave up. i didnt know what else to say and i just wasnt feeling better. fucking jackass. thats the second BFF he took. i guess there isnt a forever. beside this is probably better for him. maybe he can finally forget about me and stop worrying :'(
the last thing i said was “see ya” and he said “bye….” im sorry but it just hurts too much. please believe me when i say i miss you.
youre suppose to stand beside your friends. youre suppose to stick up for them when someone hurts them. i wouldnt befriend someone that hurt him. why did he do it to me? i feel like my heart has been ripped out.