I will talk to the admin to remove my account. I would have meaningful discussions with people here in the past. Unfortunately, every decent person has long left the website. I spent 5 years here and my life eventually improved. This place was meant to be a place of hope (you can read more about the website and this was written by the admin).
“The Suicide Project is a website devoted to allowing people to share their stories of desperation and depression… and ultimately of hope. We hope that by allowing people to share their stories of despair with one another, they can find a reason to live, a reason to survive another minute. Another hour. Another day.”
Unfortunately, it has become a shit hole. I have my reasons to say that, trust me.
This is not a hatred post. And it’s my sincere hope that at least one person who read my posts over the years has gained some hope and improved his or her life in some way or another.
As for suicide, what it’s sure, and what I’ve noticed all these years:
- It’s not an escape from life. Life continues in some way or another.
- It’s some of the worst decisions someone can make no matter his or her agonies during his life and it also damages relatives (if you don’t care about relatives or any human being on this planet, this says something about you… but I don’t really judge anyone as I know myself how hard life can be and how it can devoid someone of feelings)
- Life can be improved a lot and become worth living again. Even if you don’t improve your life too much and feel it’s not worth living, in truth it’s still worth living because death just opens the door to a lesser form of life where you feel even more dead than before.
- If you are an atheist, you believe that nothing comes after death and you desire annihilation because of the ‘wrongs’ of others and much suffering, this is your decision. Even if annihilation were possible (I strongly doubt this) by a bullet in your head, it would be the worst decision and event considering that life is sacred and this is all we are. This is all we have – LIFE
So, take care of yourselves if you can. If you choose suicide, that is your decision. If you want to be erased, this is still your decision. I simply don’t really judge anyone. After all, any feeling and thought a human being can experience does have a meaning, bad or good or neutral.
My sincere hope is that you choose life and not death.
What else can I say…. in possibly my last post…. Life is sacred and precious despite its agonies, it can be improved a lot, especially in this age of our history…. you just need to find some meaning, some love, health and well being as much as you can. Live to your full potential.