I want to say that I am sorry. I am sorry for being (apparently) a privileged white person. I am sorry for being gay, I am sorry for being a pathetic jobless slob. I am sorry for being a worthless depressing Brony.
I am such a worthless horrible person.
My entire family hates me.
I am in debt to my mother (currently 5K outstanding)
I am currently in debt to my government for further education/s (2 diplomas (that are essentially worthless now)) (currently about $90k outstanding)
I was abused by my father on Monday (6th of July) for being a worthless jobless slob. even though I am doing voluntary work and job training stuff. nothing matters apparently unless it is “paid” work.
I have calculated that by near the end of next year I am going to be out of debt to my mother (I know that I should be happy about that, but sadly, I am not)
When I am finally out of debt, I am going to organised a pre-paid funeral plan thing, and once that is paid off, I am going to commit suicide….
As bleak as that is. the only thing that is keeping me here is my obligation to pay my debt off to my mother.
When I am not doing my voluntary stuff and job training, I am either hurting myself, being yelled at or heavily drinking.
Again, as I said earlier, to everyone that knows me, everyone that reads this, please understand that…. I am deeply sorry, hopefully my death in due time would be enough to make things right.
I am sorry.
-one worthless human (or what ever you want to call me, preferably something mean and hurtful)