One of the only reasons I haven’t killed myself is this guy. I would worry too much about what would happen to him if I died. I also had a nightmare recently that my mom killed herself, and it really made me think twice.
I’m just still really torn up about the restraining order. I know in my last post there were some comments that were helpful. I’m not so much obsessed with the person who has the restraining order….more obsessed with understanding the why. I listened to Taylor Swift’s new song Exile, and it made me tear up a little because it was relatable. Not only did she reject me, but I have been banned from one of my favorite places over it. There are straight up so many people who refuse to even speak to me…..like it kind of hurts. I guess I’m just meant to be a loner.