I knew she was out of my league to begin with. The restraining order is supposed to expire in about a month, but I just want to die. I’m sick of thinking about her. I’m sick of wondering if she’ll talk to me again. I would like to just take the opportunity away completely. I’m not a fucking option. I’m a person.
The worst part about what happened was that I was told “all that matters are her feelings.”
She wouldn’t even share those with me. Do my feelings ever get to matter?
I got fucking tortured over her damn feelings. When will it stop?