I can feel that sickening sensation again, where I’m sinking, drowning again. It happens so quickly, everything seems like it’s bearable at least and then my subconscious starts to haunt me and I get pulled under again.
I’ve been having very vivid dreams lately, not necessarily nightmares, but they are tugging at my insecurities and breaking me down inside.
There is no escape from yourself.
I don’t want to go on this ride again.
I’m trying desperately to hold on but like water over a cliff I keep falling.