So to recap the list was Dumb, Crazy, Stupid, Retarded, and introducing the newest category UGLY. Apparently I am not worthy of of being selected as a mate. No one has ever wanted me. Idk if anyone ever will. It sucks guys. Now that I’m not depressed or suicidal I feel worthless .-. . Like from a utilitarian point of view I am just worthless. There is no point for me to be in this world anymore other that to not cause harm to those who love me. I think it isn’t fair for me to be here taking up space and time. It isn’t fair for me to e taking up Grindr space so I deleted it, no one hits me up anyways. Besides what am I gonna say? Hey I’m crazy and disabled want to be my boyfriend? So no. I need some time to myself. I need to grow as a person. I need to expand my mind. I need to be better. It sucks that I may never be who I want to be. I feel so sad. But this time there is a reason for my sadness. I am so many things I don’t want to be. I am not so many things I desire and admire. You know what I want? I want what most of us truly want in this page. I want to be happy. Is that possible?