Not suicide related
At the end of the day, if my mum doesn’t want to eat enough, that’s up to her. Can’t believe someone suggested that I get her some in home care… aaaaaaaaand what are they supposed to do? put some food in front of my mum and tell her ‘EAT!!!’ or start force feeding her with a spoon? No. they can’t do that. And nor can I. Now I’m taking her to the freaking doctor tomorrow. She’ll see that my mum is still rather underweight and… what am I going to tell the doctor? That my mum doesn’t eat enough? Because that’s the truth. My mum saw a dietitian recently and she followed the meal plan for a couple of days and that was it. There’s a huge tub of protein powder in the cupboard and my mum doesn’t even have the right amount (one scoop) because she says it makes her gassy and fart alot. She doesn’t have many teeth and we can’t even afford to get her false ones. Despite me and her having a terrible father (her partner) and suffering from him for years, it’s clear that my mum has neglected her own health anyway.
There’s literally nothing I can do anymore. Hell, the doctor can even look in my fridge and cupboards and SEE that there’s plenty of food and also the food that the dietitian recommended.
Heck I almost want to leave her be, maybe the doctor can change her diabetes treatment because I think she needs that, but other than that… mum can do what she likes. I’m sure she’s sick of feeling powerless constantly. I don’t want to come across as power hungry. I just care about her and want her to eat enough, but that’s pretty selfish of me and I dislike that :\
I don’t even want to go to the dietitian with her next week, because again, what am I going to tell them? That my mum doesn’t eat enough???? Yes, that’s right…
I’ve already constantly encouraged her to eat meals and try different soft foods and she just does stuff ‘her way’ so what’s the point??? AGAIN, if she doesn’t want to eat enough, THAT’S UP TO HER. For the record I don’t always eat enough either. And……????
I’m sorry mum, I wish I could take your pain away.