Every time I look in a mirror I don’t recognize myself. I see someone who isn’t me anymore. I feel like I’m just here, hiding inside this body and it isn’t me. It isn’t me anymore. I don’t know how much longer I can last. I really don’t. My boyfriends best friend constantly asks him to hang out with her and her boyfriend and I don’t know if she just purposely excludes me or he just doesn’t want to bring me. And I am struggling so hard. So hard to keep it together. I’m pretty certain he’s just embarrassed of me now and I can handle it. He never wants to show me off online, he’s stopped bringing me around his friends because I’m shy. I can’t do this. I really really can’t. I’m not myself. I’m living in someone else’s body parading around, pretending to be okay. I can’t do this anymore. I really can’t. Why do so many people I don’t want to care, have to care. I really fucking hate it.