Not suicide related
My garden looks like shit. It’s spring here. I’m in a rental. I’ve emailed the landlord about it. There’s a bunch of dead and dormant patches of grass. It has barely rained for weeks. Well sorry I just wanted a roof over mine and mum’s head. I didn’t really give a damn about the garden. Now we’ll prob be evicted over it. Or made to buy new turf. I don’t have enough to buy new turf. This garden is a source of misery for me.
I get a guy to mow the lawn every 3-4 weeks, one part of the lawn is scalped and has yellow stripes on it. He could’ve offered to make the garden look better all the times he’s been here. He’s weeded the garden before but not this time.
Imagine a garden making you feel more suicidal!
Well firstly I should get a hose. I’ve been using a watering can……
I see that quite a bit of the grass around this neighbourhood is dormant. I mean I can only pull out the dead blades, I can’t pull out the roots. Man I’m going to be here forever and ever if I’m going to be pulling out dead grass.
In winter when it was raining all the time the grass was really green.
I’m thinking of ordering the lawn paint I saw online and using that on the garden. I am sick of spending my money on a garden. I’ve had enough of complaining. Why don’t I just disappear already???
WELL AT LEAST THE GRASS WILL BE GREEN IF I USE THE LAWN PAINT, It won’t fix the patches though.
I’ve never looked after a garden before. Anyway, I mean there’s some patches of no grass at all. Just dirt.
Am I paranoid or what?