General by Jack 11/9/2020 written by Jack 11/9/2020 I’m asking myself why should I keep living. Now I’m asking other users: Why do you keep living? 8 comments 2 Email Related posts Just talking to myself 12/4/2020 I love it when shit lines up and... 12/4/2020 I am just so stupid… 12/3/2020 Run again 12/3/2020 The other side 12/3/2020 a reason to die… 12/2/2020 Meds and alcohol round 3 12/2/2020 Can’t take the insane pain and anxiety 12/2/2020 12/2/2020 falling apart (again). 12/1/2020 8 comments missingLink 11/10/2020 - 12:49 am Good question Log in to Reply LetTheLostKittensPlay 11/10/2020 - 1:35 am Because I haven’t gone through all my options yet, if there’s a chance I can conquer this illness (brain tumour and anhedonia) then I’d rather live than die. Death, for me, is when I’ve run out of options and nothing else can be done. Thanks to this illness. It’s made me realise how little I appreciated all that I had. The ability to feel is priceless, imagine that being removed from you. The only time being emotionally numb would help, is to push you further into ending your own existence. But if you’re wanting to be numb as a way to escape, it’ll only be temporary until you’re clawing away at yourself wishing for everything to come back. Log in to Reply LetTheLostKittensPlay 11/10/2020 - 1:41 am Also fucking Hell. This OCD is a pain in the arse. Does anyone else have it? Even posting that comment above makes me feel fucked up. No emotions for 8 months and counting. I’m surprised I haven’t gone completely insane. Log in to Reply CARLOSPEJUAN 11/10/2020 - 1:58 am Because I’m gonna die anyways. I might as well fight for my life as much as possible Log in to Reply Soda 11/10/2020 - 2:57 pm I’m living primarily for my elderly mother and to do something things I’ve been wanting to do for some time. The main reason I want to end my life is that it didn’t go as hoped. I’m living well below my true potential and that’s held me back from living my life fully. However I have a plan on fixing that and I believe I will succeed. If it doesn’t work then I’ll end it. Also I hate the rat race, I’m not keen on being a wage slave for another 20 yrs or so. If I’m making good money it’ll be worth going on (maybe) but if not then there’s no point to continue. Working only to survive and not having enough money or the time to travel or purchase things your heart desires is just not worth it. The smart thing to do is not to play that losing game at all-which gives you nothing but frustration, envy, depression, stress, etc. It’s better and easier to just walk away from the table. In short once my mother passes away, I might give it a year or two more and if by that time I’m still not doing too great financially, then I’ll blow the last of my savings on some fun, maybe take a trip and then ‘check out.’ Log in to Reply Once 11/10/2020 - 8:49 pm My cats won’t clean their own litterboxes, and if I die, they’ll eat me, so there’s my incentive. Log in to Reply Jhecev 11/11/2020 - 10:31 am I find happiness occasionally. Log in to Reply bellareed 11/17/2020 - 2:00 pm because i dont want my mom to have to deal with yet another funeral Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.Subscribe to comments: Don't subscribe All Replies to my comments Notify me of followup comments via e-mail. You can also subscribe without commenting.