It’s not going well. I’m in a loop. I’m unhappy no matter what choice or path I go on. It’s all about money and work. It’s just super painful. Like unbelievably painful. It’s either mental or physical. My back hurts so bad everyday. I constantly think if suicide and bad things all the time. I can’t take it anymore. It’s not healing. It’s just constant pain and it’ll never go away. I’ve played the lotto. Probably just another scam from the upper class. I am so insanely hateful and bitter. I worked so so hard and got nothing and people who don’t serve a purpose just get all this and that. I’m basically a bad person now. I was Good and then learned and slowly became bad angry and awful. It’s like I’m a nazi or something. If you don’t work super hard like I had to then you don’t deserve to live. It’s just my morals. Guess I’ll just sit around then. Have it your way. I’m constantly angry and suicidal everyday. Your welcome for sharing. It’s contagious because I’m right or something. Ahh something inside me is still there. Just a little bit some times. I’m so sorry for everything. Me the world, everything. I wish I could help out really do. I don’t know how to. Stay safe. Take care. One of these days man one if these days. I read a indicator of suicide was giving away everything you have and saying goodbye. Welp it’s all gone. To a good cause. I am improving myself so that maybe people will remember me as something better than I really was. Idk I’m so scared. Nobody cares. You just aren’t there I get it and all because I’m no different. Idk man idk. Stay safe. The answer is out There. Make good and healthy choices.