i have to stay away this time……ive ruined everything. i cant fucking do anything right. not even for a guy that forgives everything i do. i still fuck up again and again without fail. ill never get it right. im just going to keep hurting us….but….if im dead i cant message him to fuck shit up again. if im not here and he has nothing to turn back to….he will be free.
please understand i just want it to stop…..and….no matter how empty the words feel at this point…..im still sorry for everything.
i hate me. im worthless. i should have jumped a year ago when i had the chance. i dont plan on making the same mistake twice.