I did it. I told my team that I had to leave. I ran away again. I’m pathetic. I always run away when things get hard. I am a coward. I will never be anything. I love spider-man. I love My Hero Academia. I think I love those things, because those characters never give up. I love seeing them get up when everything is against them and win. How they never let themselves fail or run away. That’s what defines them. The get up no matter what. I’m nothing like that. I’m not a hero. I’m not anything. I remember as a young kid that I’d say sorry a lot when I mess up. When I was a small child and I spilled something or forget something or do something wrong, I’d say sorry. My parents would always say “Sorry doesn’t cut it. Stop saying you’re sorry when you always do this.” I’m terrified of failing and letting everyone down, so I do nothing. I am nothing. I don’t blame my parents for me being like this. I think something is just ingrained into me. Some sort of defect. That I’m just inherently broken. I don’t know. I just know it’s my fault.