I’m curious to find out if people here are more depressed/suicidal now vs. before the COVID-19 pandemic. Most people’s lives are significantly worse now, for obvious reasons, but there are some exceptions with me being one of them (well, sort of).
Although I’m still depressed most of the time, my mental health is actually a little better now despite restrictions on travel and live events negatively affecting my quality of life. Aside from that, my life outside of work is no different than before since I don’t have any friends to hang out with and have no hope of ever attracting a woman. Working from home has been a blessing for me; I absolutely dreaded going into the city and dealing with lowlifes on the streets randomly picking fights with me, panhandlers constantly asking me for change, drivers trying to hit me while I’m crossing the street, young women being creeped out by me for no reason at all, lovers rubbing in my face what I will never get to experience, among other aggravations that I had to experience on a daily basis. The frequency of my mental breakdowns and suicidal thoughts are the lowest they’ve been in decades! Heck, I’ve only made one post here since the pandemic started eight months ago, which is quite telling!
I dread having to return to “normalcy” which for me will consist of receiving constant reminders of how pitiful my life is compared to everyone else’s. I am not looking forward to the worldwide orgy that will presumably take place next spring or summer while I remain left out. For now, I can at least retreat into my own world and block out everything that bothers me about the world. Alas, that will not last forever.
Oh, and having to pretend that I’m overjoyed about “normalcy” returning (so as not to appear like an even bigger freak than I already am) is going to eat me up inside.
What about you all?