what the fuck am i supposed to do

I think im going to fail calculus, and maybe english too. Although, its kind of hard to do anything about that when you want to kill yourself everyday. And everyday I just do worse and worse in those classes. I do not want anything from this life. I was thinking of telling a random under trained guidance counselor that I wanted to kill myself to see what they would do. Maybe its a good idea, not because they’ll help me, but because they’ll do something about school. Senior year kind of sucks. I hope that whoever, if anyone, reading this is feeling ok. I wonder if anyone will ever see this. Theres more to it than just school, if you were wondering.