If any of you have ever called the suicide prevention line, you probably know that their strategy is to convince you that your life has value. I suppose they assume that this revelation will stop you from killing yourself. When I figured this out, I told them “Yes, I know that my life has value, but that doesn’t change the fact that I want to throw it away.” This effectively ended the conversation because the counselor had no idea how to proceed, so I thanked her for her time and hung up.
Am I a total aberration, even within the suicidal world? Or can someone please tell me that they relate? I suppose the stereotype of the suicidal person is someone who feels that they are worthless… Just like the stereotype of the depressed person is someone who spends all their time in bed and hasn’t had a bath in 2 weeks. But no, from reading posts here I know that a lot of us have jobs, often highly specialized jobs, and we are “productive members of society” but we just want to die. High functioning suicidal. And whether we admit it out loud, I’m sure a lot of us realize our value and how important it is for us to stay alive. But that means nothing when you’re just tired of this whole game.
An analogy would be the star athlete who decides to retire because the game is just too exhausting and painful. You can tell the athlete how important they are to the team & how much they are loved by the fans. But do you think that will make a difference to someone who just wants out?