Chronic PainGeneralMy Suicide NoteRants When will the pain end? by Kuris 3/28/2021 written by Kuris 3/28/2021 Pages: 1 2 painSuicideTW: rape 5 comments 2 Email Related posts Shut Up And Be Normal 12/7/2021 A Transmasc Vents 12/6/2021 middle of nowhere 12/6/2021 read this if you’re struggling. 12/6/2021 theory: age 25 is the cutoff 12/6/2021 I’m me… 12/6/2021 Day 1. 12/6/2021 True Friend 12/6/2021 It doesnt get easier 12/6/2021 12/5/2021 5 comments blue_dude15 3/29/2021 - 8:45 pm I am so sorry you had to go through all that. I can’t make you feel any better, what you went through sounds so goddamn awful. I haven’t been sexually assaulted, but I can relate to the part about abusive parents. You deserve so much better. I wish I could give you a hug. Log in to Reply alishalol 4/19/2021 - 5:22 pm wow. im so sorry to hear all of this. what you went threw sounds horrible and i cant imagine the pain youve been threw. i hope youre doing better and im so so sorry <3 Log in to Reply system 4/19/2021 - 6:28 pm I can relate to the sexual abuse (honestly, the abuse in general). a lot. it’s terrifying. we never get that time back, we’re never going to be that young again. our perpetrators, abusers, and the like are thieves. they’ve stolen irreplaceable moments and innocence (among many more things) thank you so much for sharing your story. this world has been cold and cruel to many, and it’s reassuring to see that we aren’t alone. Log in to Reply worthless12 5/29/2021 - 3:57 am write more. i want to know more Log in to Reply worthless12 5/29/2021 - 5:05 am I also want to die. It started when I was 5. I am now 28. Saw that charcoal in an enclosed space is a good method. My problems are nowhere near as severe as yours and I want to die. That just goes to show how weak and pathetic I am and how god damned resilient you are. I get about two seconds of calm in the morning when I wake up. Two seconds a day where I don’t want to kill myself. Intense agony, intrusive thoughts, misery, hopelessness, despair, knowing I have to go through another fucking day of torture immediately flash through my burned out tired brain. The thoughts won’t go away. Nothing helps. My death will be inconsequential to anyone; if anything it will be a weight off a pair of shoulders. Time, the cruel beast, makes it worse. Every day is a step away from cowardice towards death and then… no more pain? I agree with you about the time and the salt. Every day is more fucked up than the last. I see that you are suicidal and right away something in me wants you to live, to not die, to stay alive. Weird isn’t it. Then I feel the pangs of helplessness weigh heavily on me and I wish you a peaceful death. But I also feel like you don’t want to die and instead need, genuine “love”, whatever the fuck that is, understanding, compassion I like your aesthetic and your style of writing. Tell more of your story pls Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.Subscribe to comments: Don't subscribe All Replies to my comments Notify me of followup comments via e-mail. You can also subscribe without commenting.