1:30 am internal dialogue

don’t touch me don’t touch me don’t touch me don’t touch me DON’T TOUCH ME

my skin is fucking crawling.  he’s here again.  he’s in my blood, in my bones.  he’s in my room, but he’s not.  his hands are cold.  ****** please leave me alone.  pleasep lease please pleaseplease leave me al one,,..

i can hear him again.  i can hear him.  a broken record, repeating over and over all the things he said

i can feel the razors.  it burns it burns it burns it burns makeit stop please, ******

my body is a trauma graveyard and these scars are the gravestones

please stop ican’t breathe you’re hurting me, ******.  you’re hurting me.  you’re hurting me again.

i’m suffocating