I Survived

Hi everyone.

It’s been a long time since I’ve been here, over 2 years actually. For those of you who remember me, I used to post here a lot around the summer of 2018. I won’t summarize the content of what I posted here, but the gist of it all was that I was in a monumentally bad situation and very very close to ending my own life.I f you’ve read my post history, you may have noticed that my posts stopped suddenly after something that sounded like I was finally going to go through with it. Well I can confirm that that’s exactly what it was, and that’s exactly what I did. Fortunately, I failed and my relationship crumbled to pieces soon afterwards, around the beginning of 2019. That was the worst year of my entire life emotionally, mentally, and physically. I can honestly say I have never felt more absolutely shattered in every way than I did then.

Yet still, I made it through. I kept pushing. Now I have a happy, stable relationship with an amazing woman and my career is finally getting somewhere. I just wanted to come back here to tell all of you that the endless dispair you’re probably feeling right now can and does end, and things do get better. It takes time, effort, and usually involves physically going to a different place away from your abuser, towards opportunity, or even just out of your comfort zone that’s keeping you from evolving past your demons. Cut bad people and influences out of your life if you have to. Do whatever it takes to change your situation for the better. If you do, you will come out on the other side a better, happier person. I promise you.

I wouldn’t be here today if that weren’t true. Keep fighting, everyone.