I’ve had a horrible day. My supervisor won’t stop talking about what a “fatass” I am (literally his words), even though I’m really not that fat at all. Still, it makes me self conscious. I want to lose weight now, and I’ve even considered sticking fingers down. Haven’t done that yet, though. This has been ongoing for some time now, and happened again today. Meanwhile, my boss at work told me I was underperforming and moving too slowly, which was a surprise. Thought I was doing just fine, but apparently not. It made me so anxious about performing better that I silently and stealthily cried. My ride back home from work never showed up, and on top of that, I Lost my phone and my wallet, which I eventually found in two different cities after searching for a few hours.
I’m exhausted. If I had no strength left, I’d go off myself after a day like this. But, I do have some strength. That being said, I’m in pain today, and definitely feel sad and depressed. Im not one to just give up, but im not invincible either.