the best things happen to the shittiest people and the worst things happen to good people, or the most depressed/vulnerable people.
Do you believe in karma or justice? I can’t believe in that anymore after decades of being on Earth and consistently seeing the good get punished and the evil get rewarded. Or the ones with already good lives keep having good things happen to them and the ones who are already bad off just keeps getting shit piled on them, time and again. Not just to me but I see it in others.
Now it’s not 100% of the time but way too often to lose hope in humanity or believe one’s own life will ever turn around for the better. I’m tired of always getting screwed. And I’m tired of shitty evil people preying on me. And I’m tired of the universe constantly heaping poo on me.
When will something GOOD actually happen to me for once??
I’m in my 40s and still waiting…
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Oml yes… I have a friend, who seems to be dipped in a cloak of misfortune. My life is neither good nor bad, it’s just inexistent. She has a lot of debt too and gets the worst colleagues or roommates at college. It’s not all about being sunshine all the time, like some people think that is the secret. Sh@t happens anyway and we don’t know why. I also feel like you. Attracting the worst kinds of people. I hope something comes around for you, and don’t rely on the ole friend Karma, she doesn’t always show!
I’m from Indonesia, and I can totally relate too. I’ve actually just turned 39, and life just gets more & more depressing for me now. I’m also a thinker, and when I look at this world, society, life, existence, & reality, it’s mostly depressing. I’ve had an existential depression for quite a long time, and now it’s getting even much worse. I’ve also now become what’s called a pessimist (try to google about “philosophical pessimism”, as well as antinatalism, efilism, & depressive realism).
The saddest thing is my life is also a total failure (which is very ironic & even tragic, because a lot of people have told me that I’m very talented (especially in music), smart, etc etc etc). Everyday I have suicidal thoughts/feelings now, but unfortunately, even suicide is not that easy/simple, in reality.
Life is random.
Meaningless.
& purpose-less.
Maybe for some nihilist people, they’re okay with it.
But for a pessimist like me, it’s just even more depressing.