i’m a confused and lost soul living in a self-destructive and cold body.
since that one event in my life i’ve forced myself to be a cold-hearted and mean-spirited person because i though it was better that way.
destroy relationships before they destroy you
leave before you get left
i’ve burned enough bridges it’s insane i haven’t drowned yet.
everyone uses the phrase ‘fake it till you make it’ for thinks like confidence and happiness,
but that little girl in me used it to become an emotionless void
and now i don’t know how to turn back.
i don’t even know if i can.
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I too, prematurely ended many a relationship before I could be hurt, or left, abandoned. Then I changed course, invested heavily into a wife then a girlfriend when my marriage died on the vine after 23 years. 30 years and both burned the bridge to me, karma I think. And fitting. Hurts and just adds to my desire to burn the last bridge to here and now, if only I had courage, strength. If only I had resolve.