I’ve gotten to the point where even though I know I’d hurt people by leaving, I don’t care. I’ll be dead, so they can feel their pain and then move on. Is it selfish? yes. do I care? no. I don’t know if I could ever actively kill myself, but if something were to kill me, such as a deadly car crash, I wouldn’t fight to live anymore.
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What keeps you from an attempt?
mostly fear i think
I’m not sure it’s the kind of pain you move on from. Suicides are different – they seem to stick in the minds of those left behind. But I can understand hurting so much you no longer care.