fuck everything

i’m just so unbelievably tired in every sense of the word and i stupidly took a psychology course in college, last year it wasn’t so bad but this year i have to sit in a room with other people learning about issues in mental health. i had my first lesson today and oh my fucking god i felt like i couldn’t breathe the whole time i was on the verge of a break down, i can already tell this is going to be the most triggering year of my life. they all think i’m fucked in the head anyway, i mean you could take one look at me and guess i’m suicidal, i lost all the energy to try act fine a while ago. and to make it even worse there’s a girl in the class who always makes jokes about her mental health, like i understand thats some peoples’ way of coping but you know when you can just tell they’re not being serious about it?  like they make jokes about self-harm and all that shit? fuck me i just want to break her nose. i don’t even really understand why i’m so angry about it either. fuck people. fuck chemical imbalances. fuck you. fuck my life. fuck everything. i can’t take it