Me: Depressed for 34 years
Severely Depressed for the last 15 years
It’s been so long, I don’t see how it gets better?
What I HATE is when stupid annoying people keep saying shit like “things will get better.” NO, it HASN’T for 34 frigging years. And how can ANYONE see into the future and say “things will get better” when NO ONE knows? And when you point that out, people just call you Negative. If you don’t “think positive” or say happy happy things, people just blame you for being “negative.” Even other depressed people. Even in depression meetings. FFS, if we can’t be depressing in a depression meeting, when can we talk about our depression?
Anyhow, I don’t see how it gets better when it’s been forever. It’s not some passing thing.
Have long as everyone here had depression and do you believe your depression will go away or be there until you die?
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Since the age of 15 so thats 22 years for me , and what I find is with each passing year new reasons assert themselves for my suicide.
I had depression coming and going away , I would have it , for sometimes years or months of depression, but my life was hell so I thought it is the only reason for my problem , but even when things changed completely for me and I could be happy for a little at least , but no I came to a point I don’t enjoy anything at all , can’t feel , nothing except pain and sadness, nobody understand me , even they think they do , and I don’t think anybody understand depression, if they do they would have working drugs , for me it will lead me to suicide , because it got worse , know I would have episodes of a sudden huge pain , nighmares and desire of killing myself , I don’t no anything could stop depression except work , this is the only thing distract my mind on those ideas , at least for some time. For age , it started probably at 13 till now I’m 24 but not in all the years as I said .
35 years!
I think I have been depressed my whole life, but it didn’t get worse until I was 13 or almost 14 (my birthday is late, can’t exactly remember the age.) I’m almost twenty seven now.
I think I’ll be depressed until I die. I plan on dying, there’s no way I’m riding this out the natural way.
Although, I do still hope things can get better for you and everyone else who suffers with depression.
Ive been depressed on and off since I was about 16. So over 40 years. It never used to last more than a year or two. Now im on 5 years and counting.
they still don’t know what is wrong with me, this is after 26 years of talk therapy and every drug on the market for ADHD, depression, and anxiety. I think people forget that; if you consistently tell a child that they are not good enough, and use chemical restraints, the child will hate themselves.
I really think that “depression” is a coping mechanism rather than the disease they try to describe it as. I’m not depressed 100% of the time, almost no one is. Maybe your cycles are close together, but that’s not continuous. You can’t remember the good times while depressed, and it gets harder to remember being depressed on the days you are up and doing better. So your depressive side keeps quite a bit secret from you, if you are reading this on a relatively good day, and your frontal lobe does not have the tools necessary to understand depressed memories.
It is my assessment [admittedly only based on my Bachelor’s of Science in psychology and neurology], that in fact employers and families demand more can be given. When someone fails to meet their social obligations, it is exceedingly painful. Thus, when failure becomes the only path, when the job CAN’T be done, we are all depressed, that is what Americans think it is to have negative expectations instead of positive ones.
The fifth point of Grissom’s law states; “Just because you are expressing as paranoid, doesn’t mean that someone is not out to get you”
And my corollary; “Just because you are feeling hopeless, does not mean that there is hope.”