Lots of time to think, ruminate, and consider my next step, both done already and yet to do.
I’ve been thinking about anger, because my whole life I’ve been angry. I redirected the energy towards other projects, and one by one they self destructed. I think I was just keeping a lid on my anger long enough to develop better skills. Now, I have the skills, I have the time, it might be the season in which being angry is a good choice, not towards violence against humans, but violence against oppression.
I don’t want to break the law. I have a clean record, and everything will be done to keep it so. What I want is to find a legal way to punish the giants that profit off our suffering. I want to take their golden goose, and chop down their beanstalk [mother goose reference, it has been a long time since I did that]
because not everything horrible is illegal, quite a bit of it is perfectly legal, and most people are too timid to act, or ill equipped. Either way, I doubt the amount of people who can sublimate anger and contempt for a culture for 20 years is significant.
There is a verse, scripture that says; “For everything there is a season. A time to build up, a time to break down” There’s a catchy hippie song along those lines too. Maybe now is the time. Maybe, this was always coming round the bend.