It’s true, you fuck up the pace of your life once and it’s all over. I see now why Japanese schools are so strict and have so much of an influence in student’s lives, if you slip up even once in life, it really is all over. They’re not making it harder, they’re just bringing reality to the forefront of the equation. I left my hometown 9 years ago because of a condition, and trying to make any life out of the pieces is impossible. No one contacts me. It strikes me how competitive life really is. I missed out on some crucial experience time to build bonds. Now I have nothing and no one. And I probably never will ever again.