I could go into it but the general topic of hating myself is a lot.
What triggered this though is a pain in the ass.
“pay constant attention to me or else I’m going to think you hate me” it’s not my fault. I don’t exactly choose to feel hated and I’m fairly confident im not hated. But i still feel hated and disorders still and always have and always will suck.
I was looking into maid…… I should qualify….. The pull of “i don’t want this to be over but i can’t live like this either” fucking sucks……