Every now and then I get a little flash of memory – a small reminder of a long forgotten moment when I was someone completely different. All of this random shit is still lodged in my brain, but it’s mostly lost. It’s been archived, dumped in the recycle bin, and the links are gone. But the memories are still there, just waiting for a reminder.
It’s the strangest thing, having this random link to someone who long ago disappeared. He didn’t know any of what I know now. Had none of the worries or cares. He’d never felt despair, or even real sadness. He cried when he was hurt, and the pain just went away. He was free to experience the minutiae of each moment, without concern for the future. It’s a mindset that’s so alien to me now – a completely different reality.
I desperately want to cling to such memories, to somehow find my way back to that lost state. But I can’t be that person now. That person has no connection to my present circumstances. That person can’t live with my reality.
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Hi Husk,
Do check my reply to you and Soda in your former post.
Very interesting post this one. Will reply to this soon as well.
If you’re really curious about this idea, Paulo Coelho wrote a book called Aleph. Which is about reconnecting with people from past lives. Specifically, the wife he had ages ago.
I think he claims it is a true story. Although I’m skeptical of that, I like his writing, so I enjoyed the book regardless