overwhelmed

i always feel overwhelmed by everything. i’m not doing enough, i’m failing, i’m falling behind, i’m hopelessly lost. i can’t do the things other people do. i can’t participate in life like a normal person. there’s something wrong with me. something missing. i’m tired of living this way. i’m tired of myself. i’m tired of life. i wish i had the strength to just end it. nobody needs me here. barely anyone will even notice i’m gone. idk where i’m going with this. i just want to not exist anymore.