i read. learning what i can about whats wrong with me so i can better understand it and have a better chance at “recovery”.
but the more i read, the more it hurts, the more i hate myself. the more i question why.
why shouldnt i fucking kill myself!!!???
im constantly faced with reasons why im better of dead and the best reason to live is because ill be missed…
im hurting. literally! my body aches, my depression makes me nauseous, my head hurts. i cant fucking live like this. no one should be expected to live like this….
“You’ll probably be given several telephone numbers to use if you think you may be experiencing a crisis (when symptoms are particularly severe and you have an increased risk of self-harm).”
lol id never get off the phone with them