Its been 3 days. I havent said a word….
And neither have you.
Youre probably happy. You probably wish i didnt come back. You tell me you love me. You tell me that you care. But im nothing but problems. You say you look past all of that, but that doesnt mean i dont drain you.
You havent checked on me. I never not message you. Giving me space? Or im right and you dont care. Maybe you did at one point, but one person can only handle so much and i know im too much.
I wish i was dead. Then no one would have to put up with me. I guess thats kind of the purpose of this. To be alone so i dont bother others. So i can live in ‘relative’ peace until my day has come.
For a million reasons i can think of why im not worth it. And every day im alive is just another reminder of why i shouldnt be.
Why did i leave? Dynamics. This friend thing isnt working out.