Maybe it’s a mistake to measure success by how many days clean I can string together. I’ve smoked already today, that means it’s day 0 no matter what. But I’m fighting the urge right now, and it’s been a long battle. I can’t focus. Every half hour I come up with a new excuse and I’m nearly out the door. I’m annoyed with myself for giving all my weed away because it’s only cost me twice over this week. But hell, I think I’m winning today. The closer I get to end goal, the more determined I am to reach it.
I don’t care that it’s day 0. Today is a success. It’s the first time I’ve fought this battle since I decided to quit again. And I think tomorrow’s going to be day 1 because of it.