Letting Go

This passed summer I tried to use dating apps for the first time and I thought I had met someone who was perfect. Turns out they were probably just a scammer. Today I finally let the person have it after they tried texting their way back into my life. All these raw feelings came out and it wasn’t like I was able to finally let go of the fake contrived feelings I had been holding on too.

Before all of this I had felt the most suicidal I’d have ever felt and I was getting closer and closer to hurting myself. That’s when I told the person that for my own mental health its good bye. This was 2 months ago and just the other day they tried to pry back into my life through a new contact and I just unloaded on them. I don’t know who this person really is but I hope that they get caught if they are really scammers. My biggest take away is the new found freedom I feel and that feeling like I can be happy again and look for someone hopeful real this time if I try on a dating site again.