I’ve never imagined my life would be this empty. For years now, my life became some kind of loop of the same failures. Every time I started something new, to improve my life and started hoping again, I ended up here, and wanted to end it all, still I tried again, but I don’t think I can do that now, I’m way too tired of feeling like this all the time, to know I would just fail again, and seeing how people around me either hostile towards me or feel sorry for me.
Now I have a method and a date to finally end it, I only need to finish a couple of thing first, then I’m okay leaving for good.
Now I have a method and a date to finally end it, I only need to finish a couple of thing first, then I’m okay leaving for good.
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What are the loose ends you need to tie up?
I’ve never thought of it in those terms. But yeah, life does sometimes feel like a broken record. But it really doesn’t have to be. Breaking the loop is hard, it means leaving your comfort zone. But you won’t regret it. Suicide isn’t the only way to get out of a rut. Don’t amputate a broken limb. It hurts, but they heal.
Lol didn’t mean to reply. Consider it a sep comment.
I get what you mean, but I feel like I tried everything already, so for me only suicide left. I wish I could start my life over, but I feel way too tired of trying to change my life, I don’t have any hope to achieve anything at all.
*hugs* I want to reply to this but I’ll write it somewhere else in case you don’t want me to write it here!:)
Mostly to write a suicide note, I just don’t know what to leave behind, I already bought them books about the aftermath of suicide, and how to deal with it. And to spend more times with family, I will leave the end of this month.
I feel the exact same, and I have set up dates multiple times but I never had the courage to because am useless