i get angrier at myself by the day, i feel agitated and get headaches by just talking or texting. I’m trying my best not to relapse into self-harm, but i cant get over how fucking stressed i feel right now. as im typing this, i don’t have my knife in sight, but i think after i post this im gonna cut myself still im tired.
i feel so taken apart, so fucking used. i wish i had friends, but im so fucking unlovable and uninteresting. no one wants to stick around me, im so fucking useless in this world.
ive taken some old pills of mine, amphetamine just so i can focus on my homework, but every inch of me wants to overdose. at least i have a suicide plan now.
i have 10mg, google says i need 50mg-150mg or so to overdose. maybe after my tests i can finally fuck off from this world.