When I woke up this morning, I knew I have fallen out of reality again. Everything looks, sounds and feels grey. I have gone through at least 10 YouTube videos where 3 are just repeats of the same video. I have watched 1 encouragement video about money, doesn’t sound encouraging to me at this point. It’s like time have just stopped even while I see the water flowing, the people walking, yet the time is static. Everything is beyond my reach, that’s because I am walking through a black and white movie. I can’t remember the feeling that pushes me forward, the goals that I could pursue. But no, I don’t want to talk to anybody, not even those within the house. I just want to be alone.
My setting, my feeling
When this day is finally over, maybe it will be a refreshing start tomorrow. Just maybe.